The night I cry

The night when I decided to cry alone, and nobody knows about it...

It was painful, I couldn't bear with the pain, I had to let it all out..

Every night i close my eyes, i cant help but realise that days pass by like water. The day has drawn closer and closer to me. 

One down, two down, three down...

Since when did i find numbers and days annoying? I pretty much hate numbers since i was in primary, but now, all i could wish for is these days would slow down. 

Is it possible to turn a 24hours per day princip to 72 hours? I believe many people out there claim that 24hours per day looks like a huge number but actually is it too little.  

This tangled feeling, i wonder what is it. 

Slight news could change my mood, a word can make me go nuts. 

'Impossible' seems to be the only word im aware of at the moment. I have no idea how should i untangle it, am i suppose to ignore it OR swallows it and move on with my life? 

If i know very well that you will never fall for me, and i should totally get over you, why do i keep having this heavy feeling? 

Time flies, year 2014 has already marched into the second month of the year which is February. Just few months ago, my mom asked me if my course would be able to finish its study in Penang, unfortunately what we both wished for did not come true. 

Recently, that conversation have been lingering in my thoughts. I wonder what would happen when the day for me to leave home comes. 

Am i going to burst in tears? Or take it like a man? I couldnt imagine me hugging my families and not wanting to leave them. But in order to sucessfully graduate my degree, i have no choice but to go with the flow. 

The feelings of not having my family members around me might make me go nuts, go berserk, i dont know what might happen to me! 

If tears i have been holding on meant to set free right on that day, i might as well let it go. 2years is such a long period of time, without them by my side, i might end up crying for days. 

Counting down to October, the month i will be living in Kuala Lumpur for 2years. 

Should I go for you?

Reaching out for you is like reaching out for the stars, able to see how bright one shines but will never get close to one.

As the affections towards you grow stronger, i secretly wish for this affections to fade. 

The fact that you will never ever fall for someone like me, tells me that no matter how hard i try, how many efforts i intended to put in, it will still end up with zero. 

I am so stupid, stupid in love, i don't care about what the others say. I know what my heart wants me to do.

I wonder what would happen if you found out that i have always been abruptly in love with you. 

A slight sign of affection, a simple caring, could take my heart away. 

Every night i dream of you, i couldnt help but realise how important you have gradually become.